Me. How in the world should i describe myself? I guess i'm your average girl-next door. Nothing wonderfully spectacular, nothing too boring too, i hope. Most of the time, i'm a pretty cheerful person, except on my 'off days' and when something brings my mood really down. Sometimes, i can be hyper, other times more reserved, depending on de situation and more importantly, the people i'm with.
=ME IN A NUTSHELL=
Official name: Lim Quin Lee More commonly known as: Quin, Rachel, Quinnie, Pangput (don't ask), honey bun, MeiMei, Ms Branch.... Took my 1st breath on: 9th Aug 1985 (and continues to accept gifts on this date every year *hint hint*) Place of residence:Currently Subang, soon Desa Hartamas Buzzable at: haha.. ask me Write me: quinz_85@yahoo.com. Am also on Friendster! Class of: Form 5 - 2002, SAM - 2003 Bad habits: Saying 'Anyway,..', leaving clothes on armchair, sleeping in class, ruminating thoughts, being blur (is that a habit?) #Tick#: The colour purple, surprises, sincere people, chocolate, having deep conversations, Jesus, silky things, G3!, mud pid, cross-stitching, hilarious moments in life that leave me giggling uncontrolable, feeling useful, Disneyland, chokers, enthusiastic folk, a good song, being appreciated, Friends, a bargain, a good, long sleep, 'scary' roller-coasters, an unputdownable book, comfortable sofas, planning trips =), CK colognes, ice wine, massages, Digestive biscuts, techno gadgets (if only i could afford them..), Mini Cooper, yellow VW Beetles, being comfortable with someone, trying new experiences, super comfortable 'round' shoes #Cross#: Unfairness, truth-twisters, bitter goard, being cheated, pessimists, overly sentimental people, snobs, things that don't do what their supposed to do, my computer crashing, getting into a steaming hot car, show-offs, fried chicken skin, mayonaise, couples all over each other in public =P (oi! get a room!), inconvieniences, calculative ppl, super sunny days, smelly armpits, writer's block
Ppl... you have to check this site out! (No.. i'm not paid to do this!!) I'm very impressed with the layout and everything.. it's very eye-catching! I dunno how i stumbled upon this beauty! And can you believe a 15 yr old made it?! Wow! Look at all my exclamation marks!
People like you for your kind and friendly personality. You live every day the best you can and don't take it for granted. You are someone that can make someone's day a little better.
Posted at Thursday, April 22, 2004 by QuinZ ...Permalink
Saturday, April 17, 2004
I give up.
I think i've hit my first real minor depression since i've came. Ok ppl, before i continue, let me express my great apologies for not updating recently. Have been very busy lately.... even though it's holidays. Who here knows that holiday times are the worst times for actually getting work done? Do I see some hands?? =)
Anyway, besides all my piled up work, one big thing has been on my mind lately. I want to study psychology. For those of you who know me, you know that I'm interested in psyc, and have been since forever. I never actually considered it as a profession cause i thought it was all about 'shrink-ing' ppl and dealing with nutcases. But since i've come to uni, i've met quite a few psyc students, most doing their Masters. And i've found out that it's not only more diverse than i thought it was, there are also pretty darn good career prospects. Perhaps not so in Malaysia, but definetely in most Western countries. Anyways, it's definetely picking up in Malaysia...and there are so many Malaysian psych students here in UniSA alone.
So what is my problem, you say? My parents (always is, isn't it) It's really depressing cause, you know, you get this heart-warming feeling when ppl talk about how supportive their parents are, how they've always helped them achieve their dreams, how their the kind of ppl they know will always be there no matter what to back them up. Sometimes i feel like there is no democracy in my life. Like i have to 'do as i'm told', whether or not i like it, and whether or not it really is the best thing. Like i'm some friggin kid. Like i don't know what i want in my life. Like it's just not possible that i can actually make the right decision. Like i'm living the life they want me to live.
Over the past week i've been having so many restless nights cause i feel so strongly that this is really my passion. The career that i will be happy to have. The job i'll be happy to go to. How many people are doing what you really really want to do? Ok, perhaps most of you are, good for you, you get to do the course you want. Doing pharmacy was never really what i really wanted to do. Yes, there are plenty of good things to say about it; respectable job, good pay, good career prospects, blablabla. But is it really so wonderful when your interest nor talents are just not there?
So why am I in pharmacy, you ask? As i've said i never really knew what i wanted to do, and some ppl suggested pharmacy. I had the grades, so why not? But it just sickens me.. literally... that i'm gonna be forced to complete this course just because some ppl don't believe in me.
At this point, i am exhausted. Mentally, emotionally exhausted. I've tried my best to explain to my wonderful parents that psychology isn't all that bad.. not bad at all if you actually find out what's out there, and above all, it is there my passion and interests lie. I've done so much research.. my pleading was not without solid proof. But they won't listen.
I give up.
Posted at Saturday, April 17, 2004 by QuinZ ...Permalink
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
MaSA
Hmmmmm..
UniSA has quite a large Malaysian student population. It hit me today what a great idea it would be to start a Malaysian Student's Association. =) Not to mention how great that will look on my job applications. =)
Darn..... if only my work load wasn't so heavy. But still.. it could be a possibility. Next year?
Posted at Tuesday, March 30, 2004 by QuinZ ...Permalink
-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally charged. You definitely love the person you're with, and always want to know how they're feeling so you can make sure they're happy.
Posted at Saturday, March 27, 2004 by QuinZ ...Permalink
And i have to drive home......
Oh wow. Just drove in Adelaide for the 1st time. They're really strict with drink driving here, and Mark was going for a Psych(o) students dinner where he knew he'd drink more than the legal limit, so he asked if i could drive him back. Of course, to drive, i'd have to practice first so i drove to his friend's place. Everything was fine and wonderful... i was impressing myself with my ability to drive after a long period of being deprived, but i think i was calm cause he was next to me giving me directions and telling me what to do - the nice and helpful way, not like how a certain Mother does it. Hehe...
Then *Mission Impossible theme song* night time fell and I had to move the car cause my 2 hour parking time limit was up. Living in the city is convienient and all but it really sucks when i have to look for parking. And, for some reason, i lost my earlier confidence and cool and the fact that
1. It was a manual car
2. It was a manual car that was as old as me
3. No power steering
4. Foreign country, foriegn car
5. It's dark!
6. Diff places have different parking times, like 10 min wait at all times, 10 min wait fm 8-6, 1 hr park, 2 hr park and so on... made it really hard to read. While driving a manual car as old as me at night that had no power steering.
Stupid stuff I did in a matter of 10 mins:
1. Nearly run a car off the road
2. Almost ran a red light and almost ran into a poor pedestrian
3. Kill the engine 3 times
4. Released the clutch so fast that the car jerked
5. Was looking so hard for parking at a red light that i didn't realise the lights had turned green, and when i was honked, i looked up and panicked and killed my engine and saw the lights turn orange again. MALUNYA!!!! I think the car behind me pulled up next to me and was giving me death stares but i refused to look anywhere but in front. Decided to look like a poor lil lost Asian girl (which i was) and hoped he wouldn't get out of the car and club me to death.
Finally found a parking space after an impressive u-turn (In Australian: U-ie (pronounced youwee)) which leads me to Stupid Words of the day:
Driver across the street: Are you leaving?
Me: Yeah, i'm leaving
DATS: Ok. *signals*
Me: No no! i mean I'm leaving and my car is staying here.
DUH, QUIN!!!!!
Posted at Saturday, March 27, 2004 by QuinZ ...Permalink
Of Presentations and Pubcrawls...
Alrighty... sorry all ye faithful blog readers... I know i haven't been updating lately but i've been really busy lately. (do i sound like min?) hehe...just kidding
Anyway, believe it or not, I had TESTS after just 1 month plus of uni. Yeap.. all in 1 week too.
First up was my presentation for my Communications in Health class. I was a bit paranoid about screwing up, coupled with the expected nervousness of presentations. The presentation was basically about a summary on any journal article about Vaccnines and Immunization. (*Yawn*, right?) Our tutor gave us a list of articles we could choose fm but they were really dry and statistic-y. I think that one of the worst things that could happen during presentations is to have your audience bored and yawning, hence my interesting presentation topics last year with the likes of Female Genital Mutilation. I ended up with an article on how Hollywood can use tv programmes to 'subtely' encourage/remind ppl to vaccinate. Presentation was better than expected, with credits to Master Mark (say with post British accent), the experienced scholar of 7 years. hehe.. Anyway, albeit a bit of nervousness while trying to hide my Malaysian accent and sound a bit clearer which made me sometimes forget what i was trying to say, at the same time doing my best to talk to the audience and not refer to my cue cards (talk about multi tasking! hehe), I thought i did quite ok. And the next week, got back an 8 / 10 for both presentation and summary! woohoo! my 1st distinction! (mom, dad, hope you're reading this... =) ) And to add to my exhiliration, i got comments like 'Communicated with audience. Handouts effective'
Then were the dreaded Chem and Maths test. The irony was that i studied the whole weekend for my friggin maths test and a grand total of 5 mins for chem, but got a 16.5 / 20 for chem and tho i haven't gotten maths back yet, i'm quite sure i won't be posting my results up here. =P
Pharmacy Pubcrawl 2004 - DRUGFORMERS: Alcos in Disguise
Pharmacy students out on a pubcrawl. "boring.. " you say? haha.. that was what i thought too! First of all, what is a pubcrawl? Go to 1st pub, have a few drinks, after about 1/2 hr, head off to the next pub on the list, have more drinks... after awhile, you'll be CRAWLING! hehe.. Anyway, we had 6 pubs on our list, if i'm not mistaken. A few friends came to unihouse cause not many ppl knew where it was. Halfway there, we met another bunch of Malaysian pharmacy students. We somehow got everyone in to East End Exchange, the 1st stop, tho some blurcases didn't bring their age IDs. Oh my gosh.. as much as i hate to say this and feeling like a traitor, i felt so embarassed sticking with the Malaysian bunch cause ..
1. When we got there, the Pharm pres was like 'Hey! Howyadoin!'. I was like 'Great, howudoin!' which is basically the standard greeting / reply here. Yes, i've learnt well. The rest who were behind me just stared at her and she laughed and was like ' how - are - youuuu - doinggg?'
2. There were no more seats outside at the bbq area, so we went back inside and i was hoping they would at least look less hostile all hudled in a corner when everyone else was laughing and eating or drinking. They were discussing something while i went to get a hotdog and when i got back, they said they were going to get 'dinner' and one girl added 'at some place more decent'. When she said that, i was thinking 'why did you even bother to come?? - duh.. this is a PUBcrawl' aih... Anyway, it turned out that they didn't know where to go and by the looks of it, they were going to spend another 1/2 hour discussing where to eat, so SuperQuin (who was getting impatient) to the rescue, brought them to Felaffel to get a yiros, which is something like a kebab.
When we got there, they again hudled in a corner, so i asked if this place was ok, or would they like to go somewhere else. Then this girl, the 'at some place more decent' girl, started shoving me really hard (not jokingly!) saying 'I know you wanna go back to the pub and get drunk and smoke and have fun. go! go!' I was speechless. First of all, i was nice enough to bring them somewhere to eat. Second of all, I have never gotten drunk and never plan to get drunk, and third of all, i don't smoke. Oh my GOSH... you ppl who know me know i don't get angry or upset easily and it takes quite a lot to make me pissed at someone, but at that point, i wish i had it in me to slap her. But nooo.. i just totally ignored her and asked the rest if the place was ok, and i realised they looked pretty shocked at what she said too. But they said it was ok, no prob... When they started ordering i just stormed out and walked down the street really fast. When i finally cooled down, i got back and got something and sat down with the rest, purposely ignoring a certain somebody. Whew.
Anyway, when we finally started walking back, we were informed by some random stranger (a nice one!) that they'd moved on to the next pub. So we went there and geegolly.. it was crowded. No wait.. PACKED! I was quite amused at the way some girls had 'modified' their shirts. VeeVian cut hers off to expose her midriff and cut one sleeve off and the other arm right off so it was a 1-shoulder-strap really, really short top. someone else cut it so it was an off-shoulder top and lots of them tied it at the waist. Danny bought me a drink cause i he was oh-so-appreciative of me cooking for him.. and i downed it pretty fast cause...i was thirsty! We took lots of shots.. some really stupid ones.. really wish i could post them up, but poor me, no digicam. *hint hint*
Mark, Ish, Lindsay, Mandi, Gavin and Arvin decided to join us pharmacy students, so i was chatting with them for quite awhile outside cause i just did not want to go back in. Sweat fest! Was talking to Ish about bras and budgeting. Coming fm family with royal blood, she had NO IDEA how to budget. Don't think she even knows the meaning of the word! I was like 'Ok, let's start with $100 a week' and Mandi, a Zimbabweian girl, was gasping and was like 'Wow!' I think Ish misunderstood and said 'Yeah, i mean, how is that enough?!'. This is when i had to laugh cause at the same time Mandi said 'I could never ever spend THAT much!' Had to laugh again at the look of horror on Ish's face.
Anyway, at the next pub, I realised Danny was getting a bit drunk cause he kept hugging me and some the other girls and doing silly things i doubt he would do under normal 'circumstances'. On the way 'crawling' there, we were chanting 'Pharmacy! Pharmacy!...' haha.. if only we showed this much enthusiasm in the classroom...........
Everyone was having a good time, whether or not they were drinking, which i thought was really cool. Everyone, except Ms Someplace Decent. I was surprised she was still with us! All the time she was standing with her arms crossed with a look on her face that could turn milk sour! I told Mark what had happened earlier and he went over to 'chat' with her. It went something like
M: So...how's it goin tonight?
SD: I'm BORED
M: *pause for effect* And who's fault is that?
SD: *speechless*
So true tho, ay?.. all i had was the small cup of Pale Ale Danny bought and a Vodka lime Ish bought me (thanks guys! I didn't have to buy any drinks all night!) but we were all having such a ball... we even started challenging thumb wiggling! my special talent! Anyway, when they left to crawl to the following pub, i stayed behind with the non-pharmacy group and we did our own pub-crawl to the Belgium Beer cafe. yet again was entertained by Ish cause she liked this American guy, but coming from a protected high-class Indian family, at 24, she had absolutely no experience and kept asking me what to do. He was just down the street at another place and wanted her to join him, but didn't want to come pick her up. Aih....In the end i had to SMS him for her.... Lol...
What a night! I think the Pharm ppl went clubbing after that, but i was SPENT. What a night!
And what a long entry!
Posted at Saturday, March 27, 2004 by QuinZ ...Permalink
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Down Under
Hmm.. i was just thinking of what a good life Aussies have. Let me count the ways..
1. Australia is like somewhere inbetween stuffy Britain and liberal America. I was expecting it to be a bit more Commonwealth-y, but i think there is 'just' the right amount of freedom here.
Lol.. and it's quite funny sometimes to hear Aussies bitch about America. I think generally, that what ppl all around the world do, but them Americans just don't care! Am i right, all ye who art in America?
2. Australia has character. I was so fascinated yesterday cause i was flipping through my friend's Australian Dictionary (Aussie dicky, eh Mellie) and they have all those slang words in there that are just so typically Australian. What other dictionary has the word 'wanker' (which, by the way, is a very commonly used word here, although it does sound obscene, they use in in a not so obscene context...err...) Not just that, but it's like the people here are PROUD to be Aussie.. they really embrace it (Gee.. i suppose they have no reason not to, eh?)
3. You get paid to study. I'm not really sure how this HECS thing works, but not only is tertiary education really, really cheap, but you get paid $340 a fortnight. Which is more than my allowance now. Pah! Anyway, that means everyone really has an equal chance, money-wise. What excuse can you give?!
4. The welfare system here is unbelievable! I think you get about $380 if you are unemployed. Which leads to low-crime rate.
5. The minimum wage for degree-less ol me is $16 an hour. Wow! And the working hours are really good...
6. The interest rate here is so good! can get up to 5.7%! Aiyoh.. should transfer all my money here.. lol...
7. Weather is pleasant. No great extremes. Just ...er... hehe.. takes a bit of getting used to...
8. It's multi-racial! I haven't actually experienced any form or feeling of discrimination (heck.. i'm discriminated in my own country! *mutter grumble* you know what i mean...) Everyone here has equal opportunity! Seriously! I'm sure there are a few bad hats, but generally ppl here are accepting.
9. I like the houses here.. Small by Malaysian standards, but they are amazingly spacious yet cozy!
10. And last but not least, Aussie blokes. Lol.. No, i'm joking. No, really, joking. just thought this post was too serious. hehe..
Posted at Wednesday, March 10, 2004 by QuinZ ...Permalink
Friday, March 05, 2004
Life...
Hmm.. i've nothing much to say for now cause i'm in a rush to go to the shops before they close! How crazy! they close at 5 here! And it doens't get dark till 8!!! Anyways... it's been hot the past few days. to get a rough idea, MY SHOWER CURTAIN MELTED AND STUCK ON MY BATHROOM WALL!!! Not to mention my lil pot of Vaseline and lip gloss that melts and forms a nice smooth surface again.
Other than that, things between me and Mark are a bit more settled now. I think.... For now, at least. Sigh!
Posted at Friday, March 05, 2004 by QuinZ ...Permalink
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
Bitten by the Blues
Oh gosh. Today has possibly been the worst day since i've been in Adelaide. First of all, slept really late last night cause i had so many things on my mind (which i will come to later), then had to wake up so early for class, which was a 1/2 hour bus ride away, and then got a really bad case of diarrhea. To top it off, it was 38 degrees and somehow all the events added up to a sorta 'floating' feeling - like i was gonna collapse anytime and wobbly legs and shaky hands.
Anyway, it wasn't so much the mad dashing to the toilet, bonding with the toilet seat nor inhaling of wonderful aromas that made my day so horrible, but that i had to hurt a friend.
To cut a long story short, on Saturday Mark confessed that he had feelings for me, and it wasn't a simple 'i like you' thingy. Before some ppl start making judgements, all i can say is 'Don't'. Yes, he does know about Benny. Ok, i dun think i want to go into details about his confession, but somehow, i didn't just cut him short and put a full-stop like i have with a few guys in the past. I didn't want to lose his friendship. I don't. He's been nothing short of a perfect gentleman and an amazing friend to me. I think there would definetely be much less to write about if not for his generosity and our shared sense of adventure.
But somehow I (we?) seem to be at that age where life isn't as simple as i'd like it to be and it seems like a guy and girl can't just be plain ol' platonic friends anymore. Can they? Sigh.
I knew i couldn't keep it hanging and swaying like a big ugly monkey in front of my face, but i really didn't know how to deal with it. I know it sounds simple, but well, it isn't. The last thing i wanted was him totally out of my life cause I didn't think i could bear that! So i wrote him a letter, and handed it to him today. I know i should have spoken to him about it directly, but i didn't know if the words would come out right or worse, come out at all.
Sigh. I think it really got him in a worrying state of depression. For once since we met, his face didn't light up and a big smile didn't appear when he saw me. I don't know what to say or do with him. All i want is for us to keep having fun and doing what we've been doing all along. I suppose i'm feeling really down too...i think i made quite a bad impression on my 1st tutorial class where we had to do group discussions and all.
But how do you not hurt someone when there's no other way. How do you not hurt to have to hurt someone who wouldn't dream of hurting you?
This whole 'episode' is sooo deja vu. Some of you know what i mean.... to the rest, haha.. let's not go there.
Ok.. i suppose this is getting too deep and depressing for my liking. Any suggestions?
Posted at Wednesday, March 03, 2004 by QuinZ ...Permalink
